Uncharted

I'm going down,
Follow if you want, I won't just hang around,
Like you'll show me where to go,
I'm already out of foolproof ideas, so don't ask me how
To get started, it's all uncharted...

Uncharted 

Sara Bareilles

What to expect from the upcoming school year? I have no idea but I do know it will be what we make it for the two of them.  Two of them?? Yes THE DIVA is going to preschool.

The I ain't nothing but trouble grins.

Cut it out Mom. I'm a cool kindergartner now. Jeesh! 

 But I'll still be home to entertain Mommy!!!

Come on September 7th!! We are ready!! (I think)

The Two Best Things That Ever Happened to Boy Wonder

We are not only our brother's keeper; 

in countless large and small ways, 

we are our brother's maker.

~Bonaro Overstreet

They are the two best things that have ever happened to Boy Wonder. They pull him out when he hides. Aggravate him just enough to keep life interesting. Engage him in silly play. To them, just for now, before they are old enough to realize he's different, he is just their brother and playmate.  And I do hope that they realize that he is the best thing that ever happened to them.  They will learn things from him they can not and would not learn any other way.

Which Way?

Where do we go from here?

This isn't where we intended to be.

~You Must Love Me~

Who do we ask when we don't know which way to go?

The Map!!!!

~Dora the Explorer~

Do you keep waiting for it to get easier? I do.  I keep thinking tomorrow, next week, next month it will all get easier. In the rare quiet moments, I mourn the things I've never done with Boy Wonder. At not quite 6, there are so many things I thought about when I heard, "it's a boy" that we would do. By now, he would have been participating in a sport. We are still watching Little Einsteins and Dora instead of Phineas and Ferb and Sponge Bob.  I've never had an eye roll or an Ugh Mom don't kiss me. This would have been the summer he learned to ride without training wheels. But the training wheels are on the bicycle for this whole ride. 

I work through it most days but lately it's been a tough haul. We made the decision to try medication. We are sitting here on pins and needles. Watching Boy Wonder intently for effectiveness and possible side effects. Hoping that the vocal stimming and hand biting will calm down, that it will give him the focus he lacks. 

So where do we go from here? One foot in front of the other. No looking back just forward towards hopefully what will be an easier time.