I wouldn't want this for you.....
the sleepless nights
the endless toilet training
or
the Code Brown that goes along with it
the physical, emotional and financial toll it painfully exacts daily
the worry of what happens when we are gone
the worry of what someone may do to him without us knowing
the effect on his sisters
the epic crying tantrums
and the guessing why that goes along with those tantrums
the hours of endless screaming vocal stimming
the stares and the judgments that go along with those stares.
the battles with the school districts.
I will unselfishly keep all these to myself.
I would want for you.....
the wonder of small miracles
the belief that he can do so much more than we are told
and
that he is in there with so much to offer
the big belly laughs
the whispered halting I love yous and pick me ups
the unexpected oven mitt to the head informing the world his pizza is ready
his forehead pressed to mine and saying hi
the absolutely adorable way he chews gum
his sweet sleeping face when I find him all wrapped up like a mummy in his sheets
Those I will so selfishly keep for myself.
