Monday, August 8, 2011

Which Way?

Where do we go from here?
This isn't where we intended to be.
~You Must Love Me~

Who do we ask when we don't know which way to go?
The Map!!!!
~Dora the Explorer~

Do you keep waiting for it to get easier? I do.  I keep thinking tomorrow, next week, next month it will all get easier. In the rare quiet moments, I mourn the things I've never done with Boy Wonder. At not quite 6, there are so many things I thought about when I heard, "it's a boy" that we would do. By now, he would have been participating in a sport. We are still watching Little Einsteins and Dora instead of Phineas and Ferb and Sponge Bob.  I've never had an eye roll or an Ugh Mom don't kiss me. This would have been the summer he learned to ride without training wheels. But the training wheels are on the bicycle for this whole ride. 

I work through it most days but lately it's been a tough haul. We made the decision to try medication. We are sitting here on pins and needles. Watching Boy Wonder intently for effectiveness and possible side effects. Hoping that the vocal stimming and hand biting will calm down, that it will give him the focus he lacks. 

So where do we go from here? One foot in front of the other. No looking back just forward towards hopefully what will be an easier time.




4 comments:

  1. Oh, love, I'm walking the road right beside you. Let's lean on each other? Sending you a wish for continued strength and a prayer for peace in your heart. Xo

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  2. Every step of the way my friend. We will push that boulder up the mountain. Love you. Love that boy's sweet smile!

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  3. Yes, we are all walking with you, sharing the journey. You are always in my thoughts. xo

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