Sunday, December 26, 2010


D.J.: Was I an accident?
Roseanne: No, D.J., you were a surprise. 
D.J.: Oh. What's the difference? 
Roseanne: Well, an accident is something that you wouldn't do over again if you had the chance. A surprise is something you didn't even know you wanted until you got it.

Happy 1st Birthday, Sweet Baby Girl!! My BEST Surprise EVER!!!!


Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Monday, December 20, 2010

For My Girls When They Are A Little Older

My darling delightful girly girls,

Oh how I love the two of you.  I love everything about each of you from the top of your heads to the tips of your toes. Watching you play together, the silly giggling, the let's splash each other in the tub and the snuggling each other. You two are delicious.

I want you to know that I love all of you equally. Boy Wonder takes up an enormous amount of time because of his Autism but it does not mean I love him more or either of you are less important then Boy Wonder.

All you ever have to say is Mommy I need you and I will make the time. Maybe not right that instant but I will do whatever you need as soon as I can.

We are all working so hard right now to get Boy Wonder where he needs to be so you my Diva and Sweet Baby Girl can have a brother who talks and shares and expresses himself.

You my darling girls have been so important in bringing Boy Wonder out of his world and into our world. If it wasn't for the two of you, I think he'd be even further behind. You two push him, engage him, aggravate him and make him laugh.

So my beautiful girls know that I love you both so much more then I can ever say.


Thursday, December 9, 2010

Lightbulb Moment

Well Boy Wonder had his independent evaluation. It went well.  We were told his school is great and that he works hard all day long. That you don't often seen this type of program in a public school. The BCBA also agreed that Boy Wonder has made the progress he has made because of school and his 15 hours a week of home programming. He will recommend in his report that the district should be paying for his home hours. Hopefully this will all go smoothly.

The BCBA asked if we had any questions. What does the future hold?  Is it not enough all that what we do? As hard as we push him? I'm thinking we are working Boy Wonder every minute of every hour of every day and although his progress is miraculous I thought we'd be somewhere else by now. More typical, less therapies, more freedom, less worry. So yes I secretly hoped that possibly his school wasn't the best fit for him but it turns out it is. It is a bitter pill to swallow that my Boy Wonder is more profoundly autistic then I was willing to acknowledge.

So now we'll keep pushing him on, cheering him on, making sure he has all the therapy he needs to continue his miraculous progress while Mommy gets her head out of the clouds.