It's a never ending cycle of grief and acceptance when you are raising a child with autism. We celebrate every hard earned skill, every spontaneous expression of love, spontaneous appropriate speech, in this house that'll get you a cookie. You accept that this is your child. You love them unconditionally but once in a while you visit Whatifville, the alternate universe that really never existed for you.
Editor's Note: April is Autism Awareness Month. Our house will be lit up blue. You can light yours up too. Blue light bulbs are available at your local Home Depot.